I wish I knew
How much-
Just how much you had loved me
I could’ve saved us pain
Even if I couldn’t manage everything
I could’ve managed us

We’re okay now
The storms have passed
But it hurts
Because I loved you
More than anything
So much-
I don’t even think I knew what it meant-
At least-
Until now
And yet
I didn’t know
You were there too

I read your old poems
The ones about me
Maybe sometimes for me
Even knowing I couldn’t read them

I wish I did
I wish I grabbed your hand at practice
Pulled you towards me
Gave in to temptation
At least if I had
You would’ve known sooner
We could’ve started sooner

Our love is here to last
But why-
Why did the universe choose us
Do we really deserve this
Does it matter
I want this
We’re taking it