I'm writing this as I fall I suppose.
There was an intriguing building
far off in the distance,
and I just decided to go to the
very top and jump.

At the very top, I looked down
and saw myself.
I was beautiful.
There was a scarlet halo
that surrounded my cracked skull,
and my arms bent in a way
that made me seem like I had wings.
I climbed striving for that perfection,
and jumped.

In the beginning of my journey to the earth,
I had been content with knowing
that I was about to achieve oblivion.

They say that before you die,
your whole life flashes before your eyes.
My God were they right.

While feeling the wind
rushing past me from behind,
I saw a glimpse,
a sliver of light.
I saw my first sunrise.
I was thrown back into that time,
and I remember feeling
at peace and re-energized.
The sun had given me
revitalizing strength,
to look forward to my day
and to survive.

I saw you.
I saw you looking at me.
That one night when
we forgot about the others
around us, disturbing
every single sleeping creature,
I remember your laugh.
I remember consuming it
with every part of my soul,
and I remember laughing along.
I remember the look you gave me.
You stared at me for a while
and I asked
"What?"
You turned around and said
"Nothing."

I remember my future.
I remember all of the good things
that I could have gained from
living just a little longer.
I remember smiling
with the one I call mine,
and being content with the sunlight.
I remember sitting in the ocean,
and feeling the moon's push and pull.
I remember sitting on the moon,
feeling the tides pushing and pulling.
I remember hearing all of the
creatures of the woods,
laughing and giggling,
and sometimes crying.
I remember the oneness with the universe
that I once longed for.

In the air,
I turn around to face the ground.
I can see my burial.
I can see my coffin.
This cement pavement,
will be my ceremony.
It looks up at me
and salutes my life.
It cries at my brave heart,
coming this far, and ending
all of it.

Oh God...
I don't want to die.