You say you understand. Oh do you now? Do you know what its like to feel abandoned or betrayed? Do you know what its like to be the one out of billions as a mistake? You don't understand, you just don't. You don't know what its like to sit at the dinner table eating steak, acting like I am not about to just break. I try so hard to act like i'm this happy jolly kid who has an incredible life and family. But deep inside, Im this teenager who is falling apart day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second. Do you not realize what you've done to me? What you are doing to me? You keep me away locked up like im a cage without a key. Why cant you just let me be? So many questions i have that you can't answer, so many things that i can't fathom. Oh if only I wasn't a mistake.
i wrote this right now. i had some feelings i had to get out but ik its not my best.