how i became a self-loathing masochistic Pole how it wasn't because of the election the result being not the polaroid scrabble and i didn't hope this nonsense would come this paradigm of the social order and social hierarchies and the prisons.... marriage oh i never knew would be such a burden and a blessing... i'm still talking to my mother and grandmother more than i'm talking to my wife and i'm actually talking to one person more another woman Reyla... my surrogate daughter and that's a dream of my writing pet peeve writing project i am not making money from poetry i'm a journalistic historian or something like that i think i'm journalizing zing zing i'm not scared of hallucinations sometimes it's god but mostly it's my ego-echo coming back to me with a TY.... and i'm so negative i had to pay more than my flight for my baggage 70 squid i flew for 40 squidges... flood of memories but memories erased with emotions so the weight of emotions kills of memories and that's how i found ontological sketches on Martin when i visited him and he noticed the wedding ring and i showed him pictures of you an me and Reyla and i still have a headache next day i got texts from Reyla and i'm not used to a 14 year old Platonic Love as i err toward how Solomon had two harems... one of women and one of demons and each woman was wed to a demon but now we are living in the age of when Solomon's Mince of Vanity Harem Matthew came home to a small ******* town in the middle of nowhere and i think it was a summation of all the Psi to the power of Pi i think... i want to dig up the Greek Letters i'm just not used to having a 14 year old girl in my life when i have photographs from a Brothel and Alter Ego Bane and Batman but if a football hooligan can become president of Poland and openly sniffs carbohydrate buns and there's Putin and Xi and the Starmernator and the whole Geo Political and ISlam and i'm having fun there's this tragedy before the world opens up like a **** and Kant and Heidegger's DASEIN Poland is a DASEIN GDANSK... a town like London but with only one vowel(s) Ewa Ewy... Mateusz Mateusza... the possessive article(s) are gendered.... Woke Envy of English concerning the language of my birth *** ****** and then kissing i mean i have a daughter... and a wife so the *** is thought and politics and philosophy because Reyla is Platonic Love(er) and i'm a Moralist the Zeitgeist of Taboo(s).... i only learnt that Epsilon and Eta are twins of sound but like Eros and Thanataos... Huan and Chin... Chiny... the behavior of women is so horrid i am walking in a storm of Medussa.... and there is just so much reality-dissonance i feel like the twinity is not consecrates by the holy ghost this calls for the Animnus Perfectus Psyche... but they have different meanings and how many twins are there in the Greek alphabet? HE εη
ωo O Ω
I am Adam: i am Alpha I am Eva: i am Omega
but i am not: now the fury of men in women and i am the Alpha in the Omega or the Iota in the Omicron
neutral: o the key and i in it: beyond no door or locksmith like St. Peter and St. Paul although St Paul holds the keys to HELL... Peter holds the keys to heaven while Paul holds the keys to hell!
p.s. wow woah! wow! i'm no longer in Poland in the house of the matriarch the killer of my grandfather and uncle the spinder-mantis grandmother and i mean: Reyla... scary ****.... i actually accused my grandmother of murdering my grandfather and her son i'm being a psychiatrist now i am being hyperbolic delusional i am being suspicious while holding a burning Quran if a dream but i'm wide awake we will use AI to deal with humanoids like the neither Nathanal..... and that's me with a black cat and Prokokiev... Bulghakov... - mein kopf! mein kopf! learn German, i just looked at the German translation pigeons and woodland pigeons and the ugly ick of pigeon liberal overt sexuality and kafkas are not female ravens crowds
crows... ******* Cormacs O'*****... ease: not iz its and it's morelike it/y/s(')
i "think" and "'think'" /yod ip t0f)
i think it's code b=a by copiung== coping ius = code s-bra
Uboats and wolves and foxes painting pain throughout...
first impressions of Deutzsche meshterfabrik... mein kopf! mein kopf! moja glowa! my head... first two words i understood not: the syllables Ma M'ah... no.... i saw and heard the words in my eyes an d saw in my ears sounds therefore i imagined Letters and Dragons... so there's this game it involves playing with a DICTIONARY an... ATLAS.... DIKTUS.... the brother of Atlas... an dictionary... an atlas.. an ENCYCLOPE?ODIA ECLUCLOPEDIA encyclopedia upper lower house rules! game with Reyla... and the game is to talk... and get away from screen time i believe the internet can be used to replace to above "ontomatopoeia" ontomatopeia ONTTOlogic<
ONO-MA(h)-T(a//)ou(H)-p(Y)(wmuuQCSK)
we can talk and becauase the higher self is not a quest of *** for *** the cogniti8ve landscape is now measured by our capacity for interacting with AI or the outlet of programmers people created AI to soften the load of working with computers seriously... it should be a massive conspiracy how this supposed "progress" is like the paracetamold antibiotic of "cope" the sickness of modernity en masse... a bit bizarre like May in Poland i was there for the election presidential, election learning to drive a manual car the pope being elected i'm just a tiny man i need the context of hierarchies and time time adores hierarchies yet what is space couple with that synchronizes man to it that space borrows from the human experience like an an intelligence... time and space are not mediums of measure and scrutiny they are alien symbiosis intelligence: the Intelligent: the responsive: the bilingual the replica: the symbiosis of memory and thinking how the moment happens and there is no memory-escapism and how the necro the cities of the dead become visible and echoes stir... and that's how it was he didn't ask me to leave like he asked my mother and his mother... and it was more progound thanpr profound than walking through an art gallery and that\'s the aort of mortal art aorta like vitality persevere i mean ****
gear seven: SZYSKA... i would love for Poland the ****** tongue to use some Czech shortening: run out of ink! enough pages... not enough ink! get me the blood of a crow and an octopus... and those are? well... find out... i dreamnt i was living in the sea and this wise creature appeared and it was magical blue and Spider ****** an Octopus and why are all the Demons like Bael a melancholic crowned a spider a cat and a toad...
can i conjure a demon of my own? can i? can i name him...
i'll need a moth a cat (ugh...) a serpent a fox an ant... a pigeon a jackdaw a blackbird....
spider with human eyes... i'll need a spider a moth a cat a serpent a fox.... to continue this "conversation"
this [...] reverence for what is to be preserved: like the English inherited the best of Rome via how the roads are operated... no talk on directional lights in the theory exam in Poland there are no question about INDICTATORS IN?DICATORS INDICATORS in Polish theory of Road /Laws...
but pedantic about indicating practices largely forgotten too many ******* ROAD SIGNS the English didn\t inherit the Roman Alphabet simply because they didn't behave like the other Europeans and added DIACRITICAL MARKERS of distinction: Orwell... Dickens... topic... Orthography without Diacritical Markers... discuss...