boy is jumping off church roofs in desperate attempts to feel whole again, boy is drinking ***** and holy water in class to purify his soul that he says is a desert wasteland. he is a river, deep and twisting, wild and dark but dark like a forest not a starless sky. he is tired, down to his blood cells.

boy is "try harder next time" boy is "smart kid but doesn't apply himself" boy is "needs to contribute more to discussion" boy is trying, he is cough syrup and caffeine, a system that is rusting and breaking.