Losing It Once Again

The world was supposed to end at six o'clock today  
It reminds me of that Peggy Lee song  
Is that all there is  
  
I can't make it out of bed  
I don't want to leave this room  
I want to listen to Tom Waits  
and drink  
Yes, I'm a terrible drunk  
  
I was supposed to go to work today  
but changed my mind  
It happens often  
I'm getting tired of myself  
My phone keeps ringing  
I can't talk now, busy at work  
But I think they know I'm really home
  
I think they know that I'm slowly losing it all again  
I feel that emptiness, that feel  
That creeps back every now and then  
It's ******* me in  
  
I watch the people at the bus stop
14th st. and Ave C.  
Old black man walks up to me grinning and says "hey, you got it made"  
I think to myself he must be ******* with me  
I become paranoid and can't wait for the bus to come  
On 14th Street and Ave C
  
I still don't know what he meant  
All day I will keep thinking "you got it made"  
It will make me smile  
I will smile because I must have looked insane standing there    
I will smile because he really might have thought I had it made  
  
I guess that will keep me going  
I will laugh at myself  
Just for today  
Something always does  
  
I will confess this to a friend  
and she will confirm that It's true  
I have lost my mind once again  
I will hang up the phone  
and smile