Please stop apologizing every time you say something and the reaction is not immediately what you expected. Sorry is a stupid word and doesn't fix anything. All it does is show us that you meant to say that and meant for us to know what you meant.
We're all depressed, a bit insane (especially you), close to death (especially me), and trying to not be (Ok, maybe only she is). Jump away to your fantasy world or stay here and let me think or do what I do and put on an act for the good of the order.
But rust and Ruin stop saying sorry when I like the track you're on but it's too harsh for you to put to message though you did so anyway. Things are not alright; they never are and no one expects them to be so we may as well ask what's the ****** point?