I am "tell me you love me" at 3 am
I am "go **** yourself" at 4 am
I am
*** on the kitchen counter when the bedroom is two steps away
holding your head to my chest when you don't want to go to work in the morning
I am
"please stop lying"
perpetually running
baking a pie and kissing you with sugared lips in the kitchen
I am
driving when I shouldn't be
screaming the lyrics to every song
smoking on the roof in a little beach town
I am
an early morning jog
a midnight sprint
hot tea when I feel ill
blankets on the floor
"come lay down with me"
I am
checking my pulse
putting the razor down
heart beating
I am, I am, I am