i can't ever have what i want,
can i ?
goodfuckinggod--
i promised you i'd always be here
why couldn't you do the same ?

"sorry, i won't be at your party, baby--"
no, it's okay. i'm okay
you'll be gone by then
and it's okay. that's okay.
even though i want you there

i want you there
i want you.
she doesn't deserve you !!
you and i, we're too good for this world
our empathy overlooks her.

you took her to prom 'n everything
matched her dress with your tie
texted me that night-- after leaving me alone for three months
again in the morning
"baby, i'm so in love with her."

hmm.
really, now.
so you're back ?
but not really.
god, you don't understand how horrible you are

you make me lose my ****, i swear.
the night i need you most
you won't even be there
you're called to combat.
i always loved how strong you were

i hated that you gave yourself to her
like we did to each other
you were supposed to be mine forever
you weren't supposed to want intimacy outside of us
--us. can i even say that anymore ?