I miss who I was
I miss how happy you made me
I miss the person I was before you.

I know love exists because of you.
Because of your warm sweet touch.
Because you never let my hand go,
Even when I wanted to.

Especially when it got loud and I doubted myself,
Your gentle hand made me present.
I had finally realized we meant forever.
Finally realized we had met our forever.

I promised nothing but love,
But to you that was a threat.
I prayed for nothing but love,
So I hereby pray that your faith away from me gives you peace.

I read into your silence,
Battled myself day and night looking for a light.
Because you didn’t hold the door open,
You merely peeked through the window.
So I’m doing myself something you never could,
I am locking that door and leaving.
Because you would never have the decency of giving me an answer.

Yes or no.

I just wanted to know if should stay or go because the back and forth made me anxious.
I cried most nights
I couldn’t sleep sometimes without my box of tissues and yes I have issues—
I just wanted to love you.

My love for you is wrapped in reverence.
So I am leaving it on the porch and walking away.
Because you wouldn’t do that for me.

Thank you for the silence, it gave me clarity.
Because when it got quiet, it got so loud.
But this time you were gone.
But after all this time I’ve been able to move on,
I’ve been able to forgive myself.
I finally love life,
Thank you.

I hope my absence gives you peace.