I deserve everything
I deserve nothing
I'm thankful for what I was given
I am full of grief for what I lack
I see a friend with parents who move to be nearer
Who build her shelves and and brim with pride
Who enjoy her company and strive to help her succeed
And I wonder who I might have been with parents like that
What I might have done with a life free of neglect
I am gifted
I am brilliant
I am loyal
I am loved
And yet
There is a hole in me
That I don't know how to fill.
I can fix many small things.
I am hopeful
I can learn how to fix this too.