Just realized there was never love
no angels, Cupid, or future thereof
months gone while we played pretend
’til I sobered up and found a dead end

Reminiscing echoes of words we said
the dreams of joy have fallen dead
no love to feel, just hollowed poise
a loop of lies and static noise

I wait for texts that never come
I think you’re drowning in seas of ***
I gave too much to be stuck at sea
I let go thinking you’d marry me

You smiled when I played awkward
You calmed stress with a careful word
You parlayed my love until it suited you best
You played the game while I fell obsessed

now I sit alone sipping tea
We were never meant to be.
what’s done in the past can never be reversed
the future is filled with lust’s loaded hearse