My sadness is like a very deep pond.
The surface is calm and quiet.
But underneath my monsters swim and hide.
I stop to peer on every do often.
And I fall in.
And I fall
And fall
And
Fall.
I sink deeper and deeper
Like a stone.
At first I hide that I'm sad.
A fake smile here and a fake laugh there.
But after a while
The happiness drains out of me.
My sadness engulfs
And consumes me.
I cannot breath and
Faking happiness is just to
hard.
Finally I brush the bottom with my fingertips.
Thoughts of leaving this planet
Flirt with me and won't go away.
Someone eventually dives in and
Drags me to the surface.
I gasp for breath and
Shiver from the cold.
They wrap a blanket around me and
Make me a hot cup of coffee.
Yet this time I don't think anyone
Will dive in after me.
Maybe I will float downwards
And finally hit the
bottom.