I go into this mode of someone I don't even know. Sin has a grip on me and it can't let go. I've given a foothold and it's my own fault. I can't even think and halt. My mind gets clouded. Sinful thoughts play in my head. And in the end, it's always regretful. At this rate I can never be His tool. Change my heart. Blot out my transgressions and give me a new start. Forgive me and do not be far from me. That's my only plea. Just save me from me.