k not of the not of whales and laughter in the bellow: so old
i am disfigured in this tomb i am listening to the cure and knowing thinking that you are 18 year elder my senior and this is what happened to Rilke she was 15 years senior and she brought to Russia-Asia and i think not so much Kant and his thinking more his living i can't but i must be awake for the quake and mustard gas and seed spores like spiders finding the demon-spider the Hebrew Eigth LEgged and and and and and and and and and
ooh: i need time to breathe and then the space opens and i'm looking for the curing word the PANACEA... and LOBOTOMY CHRIST and EUCHARIST of the PLACEBO the twins Panacea and Placebus these are the Ancient to counter modern celebrity culture... find old celebrities: forgotten celibrities..
Michael Mcchyntire Mccintire the Surds of England.... and if that's conflating an admiration of Chinese writing then admire Chinese become Japanese and Korean then look at Hebrew... then avoid Arabic because of the Quran... Black Book of Arabic is as shall be known of the Quran: the Black Book of Arabic and there will a known people and their language brought to the fore... let us leave the Quran and the Bible and let us talk of the Democracy of Letters and let us compare literature beside this book by the brick thrown to make ordeal the infrastructure of man's hope to exist eternal... but the needed numbers will be the dwarfs: throw us another book! book by brick and brick and pages of cement and the whiffs and perfumes of San Francissco and New York and the first time i was there i flew over and landed in Curt Cobain's and Grunge might i add the thirst from thinkinng not saying: i'd laugh at the joke because it was playground Kaiser-MArxier a language joke but foon on stage the silent letter day the gNOME of the silent disappearing act: say Gnosis and then say Diagnosistic... how you can capture the big G you do say the silence and eternal letter you say the gnome was diagnoised... you didn't say: dive-o'nose: noose of the nose and the know oh ohs... i opened the veins and thus drunk wine so i was drinking my fill while i'm sure i did the least bit of misery against the world i drank i listened to music i drank some wine i was alone within and against myself and the world conspired with me to just give it a peace of self as the only piece of the world and the chains of world and of the self there's the ego by calculation that can implode the individual to wage a war against the world: i wouldn't and i couldn't nor:
the regiment: the regime i mean: within the confines of the anti-solipsist who started talking to Oedipus about Anti-Oedipus and Christ and Solipsus... and the Darth Sq'uid... the sqy for every shy...
i was there when men where solely the subjects of existence while the women where the objects of existence one can say that there is Life and Existence as much as one can instill the words: there's Life and there's Nature..
so much of Nature can be explained by Existentialism without the postmodernist artists we have the existential philosophers.... but here i am i am saying to you: nature can be treated on par with existentialism...
shsh: 'ere *** z'ee SKY ZORES scissors scissors scissors Edvard: scissors scissors scissors... sky-zores... screat: screet: concrete: ***** 8 draws on quarters... more wine: mon fredo!
i said silent accent that ******* wong is my wok i mean you studying people via me studying people have i taken your body or have you taken my mind i feel i'm writing in the freedom cage of bachelors and you are thinking about the electricity in the house... i must be trying to get into the SYNCH...
alone so i write i'm thinking of bringing the great Slavic Hoard not Horde... the Hoard of a personal Library: i was in a house where only 1 cockroach got in... but i was the one who brought Aristotle Jon Fosse and Knausgaard into the house like when i took a room at university and on my walls were the pictures of Plato Marquis de Sade and Napoleon...
and just imagine the routines of out intimacy and i'm just alone and the night comes and i don't want to be alone with God or Hell and my parents have their lives and i'm so suddenly complicated now and now knot more if i could not ask for divine inspiration ifwith the library extended: i could give more room to these books: but the Charles Dickens are Victorian books and they must get out unreadable so waste of space... but i'm keeping the Shakespeare i'm bringing the 6 volumes: because you probably didn't see Junkowski's and the DZIU... Madziu: przestan sie bawic w latawca i tez strusia... dziu in less the Capital culture transit: so fiendish collateral: the t.v. isn't on.. there is a weirdness in the air because the refrigerator is going to get butchered and someone is going to eat a tonne of ice-cream and have zits and **** and thighs a'comin'
air b'n'b back home and i'm on discount two homes but apart from the person that i am i think i'm drinking because boredom i don't think i have a physical problem it's not an addiction but a mind-construct... the body is in dualism: is it not? yes: i will continue to drink yes i will continue to smoke yes i will continue to believe in God because i Fear and i Fear in God i do not Believe in God: i Fear in God! i Fear in God!
when i'm with my woman i go from the TDs and the TBs and the shakes from 1 litre of ***** per day to bring me down: Mr Kite Blue Man Kiteblue Man...
but this addiction is alligned to my body not my body alligned to the bodies of others i mean: sober up in your drunken sleep walking from mirage to mirage drink while walking through the desert then drink magic mushroom juices in the amazon... and so few are named from that study of how the bay leaf works in cooking...
date? dirge: the forge stood on Edi's hill Edinburgh: Edie's ol' Edies'... Edinburgh my learning curve into discovering Eddie the Slayer of many Edie apostrophe-and-plural-article (s)...
intellectually if i were to spend time alone it's crucial to rekindle self-guru non-goo-rah... for the sake of the mountain and the gleaming stone of envy and the river as the false of Heraclitus... reimagining Hereclitus' River and Matthew... Faucet part time plumber: Jack O'Roo...
the river unto Heraclitus but leverage me with Heidegger's Hammer and i'm just in allign mode Allan... Allan... Allan... Mort.. Mort... Mort...
give me Hereclitus' river and i will give you Matthew's tap tap... drip... tap tap... drip... i can tell you the difference between each droplet of water... i became master of this dark art... if you listen closely: not two taps of water are alike... there are 2 taps per 2 seconds
which was sort of funny to my parents there are 2 x 2 = 2... there ewas the 2 x 2 = 2... depends on the letter... when making a tunnel: this is called blind tunnel building 2 x 2 = 2 when you have, tools: 7, 1... 5 Z... L nurse... the Greeks are getting ctrl+c tariffs... waiting... and i wish i drunk the aphrodisiac of the ******-active just new next north yorker so cool play it cool so much little village people or Mrs. Grays'
i still don't know how to properly write the plural and possessive articles... i have a custard fudge of confusion like most people in the outside world with pronouns i don't simply know how to write the possessive article with the plural article... i'm getting ᛋᛋ back... Throne's Thrones' is zest-esses...
but that wasn't the example i looked and i decided but what are we beside just bringing children into the world what does that call this daughter if not Pope my little ****** i want to create a Female ****** i want to give a birth to a Female ****** using my mind... i want my ego to become a monster i want Ray Lil' R to be my monster Female ******...
i am so lost and found i have a daughter and i want cupcakes with candles in their only one eyes...
the addiction comes with the brain being relaxed... like Eslie and Narrator Brian and the Jess some Ross some Rose some i'm thinking because that ******* Golf Course is bothering me.. i think i picked that up... no Golf Course: you seriously want those Mountains and the primrose green of people too confused with the practice of gravity as a subject: to other subject matters alinged but as a stand alone object like gravity is so ridiculous for my care and concern like time and speed... time and space are... when you're not comfortable... baby... i get my demons into parliament my demons are in parliament and i have to sit the role of whip and curator... who know what calls them butg they come and i wasn't asking...
you think i would be drinking but when i am alone and in my library you have so much untold and i'm alone and you're not telling me don't dream when i i tell you how you curve in bed sleeping like Walrus moves in my bed then the Giant Squid in Slurp... or however kindle: but there is the pedestrian route of god throughout the lives of life... the 20th century was almost magical it truly was magical: that's when it was all staged the Apocalypse... the Armageddon... but these people that still ascribe Christianity Judaism and Islam to their name... there would never be this one grand event... which establishes the fact that Christ's crucifixion that these patterns happen: and matter: but given the dynamic of Time... Truth-Untruth-Truth-Truth-Untruth... for one time it is true but then not true: depending on what makes more convenience rather than sense...
i'm addicted to the mind that thinks this when this same mind can't think this when there's the family live invoked and there's the pop corn eating and the night gua4rd fireworks like *** is what's unnatural about ******* and ******* i watch it in absence because i'm really attracted to her and i'm not going to cheat so i will drink and smoke and keep the knot of nuts...
but if that wasn't her greatest ordeal..
the ripetide rhoi: O wow... there is the advantage of printing letters then flinging words or if you want to substitute: there was no criterium for what: has already happened and no blissful Zion emerged like the failings of the Third ***** and... 3rd Republic of France 5th REpublic of Poland... is this the First Zion Party?