I wish I could escape this rumination in my mind.
When you said those words, I felt dyspnea.
It happened twice,
And hurt as much again, Twice the pain.

Darling, I give you my soul,
though your heart is hard as a diamond.
I know I can't blame you,
You said I was special,
A special place in your heart

But, not the lover I longed to be.
What shall I do with this heart's pain?
I knew my happiness lay with you,
If not, I don't know what I'll do,  
save me from this dark cage of loving you.