I’ve been trying to grow from the fallout.
I masked so long, I burned my life down.
The flames took you with them when I threw in the first match,
There is no coming back from something like that.
I never knew what to say,
But you’re still on my mind every day.

I sit at the spot where I saw you last,
I’ve been holding on too long to the past.
I tried to be who they wanted me to be,
it was too much and I had to be free.

I never believed in myself enough,
Too soft for love, too hurt to be tough.
I did a lot of things and i live to fix that,
Sending clever messages, hoping you’d text back.

I didn’t mean take things that far,
I always had to mend my own scars.
My family left me battered and bruised,
and the world left me feeling used.
Somehow I got lost along the way,
Never knew how to trust, or whose hand to take.

It’s easy to say I’m ****** in the head,
But I’ve learned to give myself grace, instead.
I’ve grown a lot from the things I’ve said,
And even if you never forgive me,
I’ll find my own peace,
and I’ll learn to forgive myself instead.