A dull ache
A familiar pull
Twisting guts

How many hours spent
With my head in a toilet
Straining till my eyes stream
My heart racing

This is the last time I say
Never again
Racked with guilt
Tears covering my swollen cheeks

Bulimia you say
"The one where you throw up"
Yeah it's just that ... Nothing else

No racing anxiety
Failing mind
Scared to see a reflection

Not caring if that
Little beating ***** continues
Praying for a helping hand

Why
Why
Why

Consumed by thoughts of food
Never allowed to rest
Keep moving
Never stop it says

Nothing is ever
EVER good enough
It tortures your every waking moment

Fat fat fat
It says
Everywhere
Greedy - ugly

Bulimia
"The one where you throw up"
If only that was just it ....