I’m closed off and reserved.
But you see past that wall.
I hide behind Indifference;
Begging that it wouldn’t let you through.
I didn’t understand what I was feeling.
I didn’t know what to do.
I bottled it up.
But,
Eventually, you were let through.
What did you want me to do?
I tried to hide yet you found me.
You held my hand, you told me it would be okay.
You told me that I was normal.
Why did you lie?
You told me I was feeling something called love.
But I haven’t felt that for someone in years.
So why would I feel it now?
You weren’t special.
Never will be.
You faded into dust. And I couldn’t be more happy.
Because my feelings were wrong. I never loved you, I never will.
But I still have one question.
“What’s love?”