I can be a person who can dominate social situations,
I am known to the public as sociable
but that is only because I know how to manipulate my confidence.
I find when I act like that
I can no longer think thoughts,
I can no longer be a person,
but just a powerful motor that people look up to.
I can make my highlight reel the best ever made,
And I can do anything with that confidence.
But that is not all of me.
I am the darkest thoughts I think at the end of each day and the rawness I feel when I know that I do not love anyone. I am the tiny blip of true comfort I feel when I thought of my mother for just a moment after I stretched today. I am the light that I forgot was so bright after I kept my eyes closed for so long. I feel very raw. I have built walls to keep me refrigerated, but I find myself breaking them every afternoon...I do not want to be an icebox, I want to be a person.