There is blood red bitterness blooming like a time lapse flower in cold, hard rivulets exploding like popcorn from a kernal with the same intensity of a sudden summer squall or a casual unkindness from a onesided object of abject obsession. There is a blood-quick dull throb at the temples and a sudden drunken lack of reasonable inhibition filled with buzzing curse words boiling deep in the throat and deeper in a history of neglect and pain that ache to burst through to visit rewards of anguish. There is fire and then there is calm and then, finally, there is regret.