I wish that Katelyn lived closer

Drunk dialing would go a little more smoothly
for me if she at least lived in a neighboring city
I said I would crawl to you and I would
but I'd hardly make it to the end of the street
let alone over the state line before inevitable collapse

I wish that Kristi didn't disappear

My mind would be a little more at ease if I knew
why you vanished in the first place
Questions would have answers
ego would be pieced back together and
that foolish hopeful flame would (hopefully) be extinguished

I wish that Caitlyn wasn't so sweet

a cavity of the heart made the sugar maddening
but you still were so true
sometimes I find myself wanting that madness again
to be alone in company and calamity,
to feel someone's gaze in total love and acceptance;
most times I don't

I wish that Angie wasn't spoken for

I respect your loyalty, I do
You don't come by that very often
But don't you just want to cast that aside?
Don't you want to succumb and give in?
Just this once, let your desires win
But that's just my desire talking
Don't listen

I wish I wasn't so convinced now, so cold

All I know is the cruelty buried
underneath mesmerizing complexities

I also wish my **** didn't burn so bad coming out,
so, now I don't know what to think anymore