I hugged her - hugged her so tight that as if bringing her close to my chest, with our heart beats going in sync, would help transfer her pain to me. I would love that to happen. Her pain all gone and I, enduring it all. I knew she was hurting, I knew I was a part of it... And I knew I wanted to take it all back to me. She did not and does not and will never deserve that pain; but the best I could do for now was hold her so close that I feel her breathing in my neck and hope that as she rests in my chest, she hears every heart beat of mine shouting her name. Every beat was hers. I wipe away her tears and kept her close, I could not afford to let even a tiny bit of space between us - all the 5 months that has gone by without feeling her warmth was already too much; I could not let space nor time get in between us anymore. I placed my lips into her forehead, held her at the back of her neck and caressed her curly locks, no need to say any words, with hopes that the silence would emanate how my heart is beating faster and faster, louder and louder and again, all for her.

From a distance I am always keeping you this close, Anne. I want you to hear every heart beat; how it skips when it sees your name on my phone, my Twitter feed or my Facebook page, or how it goes faster when I look at every photo of us together - reminding me of how magical our relationship was, is and will be. We will be stronger, we will be more amazing. We will burn and shine together. For the next 3 months, I will be doing my best to let each day be a chance to bring you closer and closer to me, and as I return, I will never let time, distance nor pain separate us anymore. I will wake up everyday beside you and we will spend each day having each other as our first and last thoughts. I will make you fall in love with me every day, and I will fall in love deeper and deeper into you every second.

You are always loved, Anne. :) 97 days. Please wait for me.

Always,
Your Mims