I told paul that i am convinced everybody is conquering the world while I am just sitting in this town full of old angry white people growing smaller by the minute. There is either a light too bright about to henceforth burst out or i am just simmering down to a low boil destined to be only half as special as what every boyfriend has ever deemed me.
Paul said a lot of things about "my own journey", terribly cliche things about success and happiness but one statement that struck the right chord
Aren't you realizing the good you're doing for yourself?
Something I could understand. Yes, I realized this. but that didn't change the fact that the good I was doing for myself seemed so utterly boring in comparison.