Yes I have mad anxiety
I’m working on myself

You want to shout and scream about how bad I was

But tell them what you did me and how it lead
Tell them how good I was
Tell them about my light within
Tell them how I was ended up changing
Tell them how I genuinely cared
And how I  always cared and worried about you even before the incident that changed my life

I’m not embarrassed on checking in on you
I’m not embarrassed at all
No matter how many people you tell
Atleast give them the full story
You want me to be the villain so bad

But the truth is no matter how the person is and even if they can’t be who you want them to be you don’t ruin them because their not at their best potential for you

I was seventeen ofcourse I didn’t know better about loving myself or others I struggled in that I told you that myself that I didn’t know how to love


Tell them how I changed and what I did to overcome the war in myself

Ask them what I said when it all happened I said
Let god Handle that  

The only inability I had was not being able to love you the way you wanted me to
That is not excuse to use threats
and treat another poorly
I tried being myself
I tried making time
I forgave what happen in the past
But I seem to not be enough
You don’t like me as I am
Everything that I do is bad
Even me breathing or going on errands is bad
I tried to communicate with you
You don’t want that
That leaves my hands tied I cannot do anything

I try to be their for you
But you don’t want me to be
You keep questioning what my intentions are
And why I still care so deeply

There has been no accountability on your part
I do care for you
I do
I can look past what transpired because
You were forgiven a long time ago

But really having the dudes roll up on me not
Him spitting his gum at me trying to disrespectful
We are grown
If you want to talk come and talk to me
Or else carry on and how you wish to proceed
It’s your call and lead