If only
I can run to you right now
and hug you
until you fall asleep
to assure you that everything's all right,
I will.

If only
I can wake up beside you
every morning
and follow you around during your whole day
just there, supporting you in all your day's work,
troubles and triumphs,
I will.

If only
I can hear your stories every night,
while cuddling in bed, holding hands
with the TV on (but we're not really watching because we're too busy listening to and falling in love with each other),
I will.

And I know
that one day,
all these If only's
will become
our everyday realities.
I am assuring you
that I am doing my best
to be able for us to get to that day
that everyday will be ours. Only ours

:)

*ps. You are always loved, Anne. I am just here. I will do my best for us... So that when I come home, I will have all the right to give you my pleasant surprise. It is a risk, yes. But I know you are worth it. :)