I'm happy for now
I expect to be happy a bit longer
till that old memory of a boy returns
he'll dance on these fresh flowers
til they're wilted and dead
and walk off like he's entitled
like he deserves to break my heart time and time again
he'll return again when i finally feel safe
and tear everything apart
I could push him away
stab his very though in the heart
but I'm not that strong
because he's like a drug
and when all he does is break my heart
I need him
and he'll never stop

I'll have long forgotten him
moved out of state
happy
a new life
new friends
maybe a new love
and when me and my love are drinking our morning coffee
you'll show up on my doorstep
with an apology and a convincing smile
I can't help but think I'd leave him there
and go with you
for a week or two
until you break my heart again
if i still have a heart by then
if you haven't already tore it out of my chest
still beating and bleeding
bleeding your lies
that I can't get enough of