Maybe a cruel twist of fate maybe by the God's design
I don't really care about the why I just want it to stop
Because if every new day just means losing something or someone
Being afraid of everything holding onto something already fading I don't know how much longer I can
I'd like to try and think that maybe I'll try for you but I know I'll lose you too someday
As much as I wish to I don't think I can believe in a happily ever after
Because sometimes things don't work out and we still have to go on
I'm trying to hold on trying to hold back my tears but I don't know if I can
I always knew that each new beginning has an unavoidable end but it still hurts
The thought of losing you keeps me up at night and you tell me it'll be alright
But I don't know anymore because what am I supposed to do when I lose the best part of my life?
Written about my experiences with terminal illness. Friends, family, and even partners I know have struggled with it and as much as I hate to say it having gone through it before does not make it easier. I'm sorry.