What would you do if I were to say I miss you?

Would you stay this time?
Or would you leave me again?

Would you say I missed you too?
Or would you stare awkwardly into space
Trying to avoid eye contact?

Even if you did say it,
How could I know it to be true?
How could I tell if you are genuine or not?
You've let me down so many times before

I could never trust you, Silly me
And why should I?
You've surely given me no reason to do so
Why should I care?

But why can't I stop caring?
You were such a big part of me
Just by not even being there

Sometimes I wonder if you ever stop to think of me
I wonder how you feel when you envision my face

Where are you Shawn?