I tried
I really did
For the second time
I signed up
I logged in
I looked at the syllabus
I clicked "play" on the videos
and I watched

I watched as a group of students
and the teacher they admired tremendously
began talking about poetry
talking and talking
about each word
each and every god  ****** word
"what does it mean?"
"why did she use this word?"
Et cetera
Et cetera
Blah blah blah

and although I wanted to finish the course
this time
I could feel moments of my life
moments put to better use
hugging my wife
talking to a child at college
writing poetry
or
finishing that dragon head puppet that calls from my work table

being ****** away