and I gave. especially I offer love. I was full of love, trickling arround but I received in return: indifference, reproach and hatred that's how I found out that this life is a constinous struggle and I tried to give. with hatred, with thirst but I got sick hatred was not for me I hugged and built a wall arround me that's the only way that I could deal with evil and I began to give an advice or silence and it was night, and then it was day and it was good silence heals