I feel  like im not allowed to express what I really feel inside my head any more.

I feel more like a droid
Numb, sad and very bored.

I don't feel like an  human.

Everything in life has to be so confusing,
frightening  and it just doesn't feel like how beautiful life should really even feel any more.

Everything that was good in my life  has been gradually shutting down over the years.

I always feel like im wearing a frown.
More poorly, paranoid and insecure.
Being fed more ways that you must live your life as said by the  experts behind an computer screen.

I wish that was life
more like an beautiful dream.

That one day things will be a lot more fun and brighter again but this will  never be for the time being as all we can only accept in life is what we are able
to see and make the most of what
we have got to ever be feeling truely free.