i'm slowly figuring out
in the ****** puzzle of life
that taking my own
isn't worth it all

the story unfolds
and the ugliness spreads
like a cancer, a mold
leaves side characters dead

and now that i'm alone
i've started to grow thorns
i'm a mutilated rose
filled with envy and scorn

i'm healing all alone
i'm a ******* med
i'm taking my pills
and eating my bread

in gematria i'm jesus
in my mosque i'm a ghost
in your head i'm a parasite
in my mind you're a hoax

we're two sides of the same coin
good and evil are exploitative
don't judge the nature
don't try to destroy it

i'm slowly figuring out
in the ****** puzzle of life
that taking my own
isn't worth it all

i can draw your name in the bathroom
and **** on it in the stall
i can rise like a tide
like a tsunami i can fall

i **** on your parade
and still taste like lemonade
and fight my own battles
and heal my own wounds

my mentally illness after all
is only in my room
i can destroy the world if i wanted to