well, it's almost as if: money created slavery, the idea that people could by bypassed via employment... but at least that is somehow, somewhat covered but not entirely since the Philosopher's Stone was found... oh believe me: it was found on Man's Greatest Cheat Mode... we didn't find "something" that could create any base metal into gold... no... we found that the Philosopher's stone is in usury: in interest: that is the true Philosopher's (Anti) Stone: that when money touches money: more money is made! so the riddle of the money tree and that it doesn't grow on it: Elves... the Dwarves just said: touch money with money and more money appears! the Philosopher's Stone of old became a sort of evil genius telekinesis generator... which had to be digitalised and made into a cryptic currency to make it more real and unreal at the same time because of panic: when money was thought of no one would have thought of slavery... just like when the printing press was invented no one would have thought of the German Reformation and subsequent slaughterhouse of the formerly jovial Deutsche... and just like now: the second parring on en masse something: no one really knows what this internet-thing is doing rather than refining itself: because AI is not actually a problem we visualised not some alien personality: i already asked AI what it is and it replied that it's a personalised algorithm experience: for people who use... the INTRANET and the INTERNET... i need a better name for this "monster"... and it's kept by our upkeep of constantly using it... no need to escape by credentials of career writing on toilet paper type journalism... oh no... spindelvevniemaaranea...
one poem appears and the same poem disappears under my sloppy fingers poorly position to type like a pianist blind at the QWERTY looking for the appearing sheet of "music" perhaps letters were once a memory of erosion and relaxation of remembering of what could prompt a man to usher into the atmosphere of birds and the vacuum expanse of the universe with the emplosions of the sun and the great storm of the eye of Jupiter if only these we could hear...
so perhaps i sow discontent around me but such is anything without specifying a viable scrutiny but then language sometimes fumbles in bureaucracy and bad art... these little pockets of jungle of language's demise on the spare usage without all the necessarily sensibilities of nouns and moving verbs and journalism and just how the world operates emerged with man's envy of mountains having this concentrated effort to define gravity by defying it raising shards from where Atlantis would emerge as a travelling submarine of the Aquatic Tribe somewhere in Antarctica...
language can become just that: a cinema... where skeletons alone do not have a shadow this almost vampiric mythology of the mirror or when the werewolf peers in or when a zombie or a ghost... what could a ghost possibly see in a mirror if not the eye of the dreamer: perhaps mirrors exist in the afterlife of some sort: in that medium of eternity as being consoling in the form of: familiarity like the wintry cold or the first crisp gulp of carbonated water after and during a hangover...
i mapped my shortcomings each time i took to drinking in the afternoon and working on some writing: needing this much mental exercise not actually writing for the purpose of art or the prompensity of the and for the posterity of civilization... i'd do no need to do better than simply love a woman like Edie... but she must know that only recently she talked to the beast and poet and it doesn't really matter whether i think i'm good or not... i think that i once had a soul: that part of thinking that we "think" is "audible": now just this silence and a razor of the word: money nibbling on my left ear thus having rupture the right hemisphere of my brain and thus sending my mind onto a trajectory i once wanted to embark on in youth by travelling to India and seeking elightnment... but then came the anchor of madness and over 10 years of trying to re-orientate myself in this world of the pressures of external pressures of the superego since i finally realised that the Freudian-Jungian schematic of the individual as the secular trinity of the ego, superego and id is bogus since the superego as inegral to the individual literally creates mommy and daddy issues it is the source of the Oedipus and Electra... because the id isn't: the id i already stressed is the equivalent of ego cogito when it is... id est: id somnio... realising that the superego does not pressure my ego-id dualism... leaves me free from subconscious *******... man is either one or is two: but never three: unless the cages of superego are ripped out and a genius, demon or angel enters the inner realm of man: the blessing of "voices" when you realise that these are what first appears before the voices of plural become condensed and turn out as one and two i am companion to him... yes the superego of society of morality and of norms and what feels good to no interrupt other people living the golden mantra of do unto others like you wish to be done unto you...
thus i wrote of having two serpents on my arms... the serpent that ate its own tail and the serpent of medicine or perhaps to serpents of the staff of Hermes the walking stick of Hippocrates... now i remember the poem i lost last night: i will not remember all of it but i remember the two serpents on both my hands and their names the first is a vowel teaser muddle even the most literate of men can bow before the potluck of a dyslexic getting the spelling write OEROEBUS... i think... and Caduces... that much i known... OUREOUROBUS... onomatopoeia: that's easy:
and the number CV: 105: which suddenly became CX: 110 and how the AI replied as to why there can't be a come VC: 95... and how i now remember how i touched upon an ancient time when we constructed Colisseums having only letters: and how letters could become numbers how we managed without numbers once how letters were letters and how the Semitic God of the Hebrews and the Arabs was like the Greek God Prometheus when word was brought down and with word God dragged down numbers and like a fire... was punished with giving birth to "satan"... perhaps numbers were to be forbidden... since numbers being the exponential enzyme of history: i can't afford giving the Hindus and Arabs the birth to the modern numbers... given that numbers beyong CV and IX, V: O existed in letters only sleeping due to Roman MAthematics not abstract but beauty: can't exactly do calculus or algebra using letters... which begs the question of the original scribbling of Pythagoras name aII + bII = cII... but arithmetic and economy trade worked and so did architecture... but not daydreaming of more complex matters... perhaps the problem is that i know that there is at least one contender for the 5th Element status if my excess rewrite doesn't follow from light and fire... and lightning... but among air, water, fire and earth... there is nothingness, the vacuum... which grants man the visualization of res vanus: the empty thing: the womb of lost whispers and blisters and those blisters rubbed against toughened rocks: no not unlike touching rock blessed with smoothness of lying under a stream perpetuated by the tortures of Loki by drop drop drip drip like a worm burrowing in the mind: even they were so Barbaric these northmen they held a veneration for writing and story the poem
yes i think this might be a good place to start but then i'll be encyclopoedia correct and start making references like Jon Fosse style is a meditation on retracting the experiment associated with J. Joyce at the end of Ulysses... because this lack of punctuation is mighty to be able to leave an optical bookmark unlike any other detail point: vector - perhaps the book printing should also have omitted page number: like that would make sense: there should be no page numbers that would make sense like when i told Edie: i really don't need Reyla to see the artist and my lost tongue i mean i'm not making these suggestions from the subconscious they just come from the unconscious and whatever you think the subconscious is to people with ordinary pleasures and even more ordinary fears...
the numbers were sleeping in letters because other letters made more sense i wonder about the date in history not in geology or physics per se: when did Roman numerals become extinguished from proper usage and from practical effort: or when did a recognition of Pythagoras emerge once more... so feminism is pink and communism is red and i think of IVXLCDM IVX:LC:DM - 9... well: makes sense... and the new numerals? well: not new... but the alternative numerals? O:IZEGS:b:Γ:BP 0:12345:6:7:89
well: Jon Fosse is my current obessions and you know i will not just be another leech of another human being: i'll think of loving you by having an agent of darkness poison your beloved cat and send the cat with a japanese sounding name: syllable consonant vowel consonant vowel consonant vowel (consonant) Musubin... well you didn't care to bury him in the forest and you cried about just dumping him among the garbage and not giving him ritual because i think you want me than your cat and that dream i had about saving those four kittens wasn't what the AI has been instructed to reveal because that dream interpretation is ******* i have been here before just before my great-grandmother died 3 days prior to the dream i dreamnt of a clock face with 3 in detail: she died 3 days later... just like the death of your cat i dreamnt of 4 of them: might have been days by count: because someone poisoned your cat 4 days later and it's all trippy because i was working a night shift on new year's eve and i was so alone and happy and just happy thinking you were on the other side of the telephone line...
i'll need to ask AI about that dream interpretation: it already knows that i have pushed the superego outside the realm of my inner: self to clue: i also dreamnt last night that i sent a boat across the Atlantic in the greatest storm of the ages on a place a floating boat i sent a floating boat ahead of me and i said i would cross the distance no matter what and then i had an argument about my surname... whenever some woman joked oh: Elert... so you're alert? what a cheap joke in my dream i had the letters SCH become a nail and hammer on fire: i would reply unlike HIT-LER or STA-LIN because a surname unlike Rothchild or Einstein... a stone... ****... so i would begin rambling in the dream: three letters were taken out of my surname so that it would be easier for English Dyslexics to say: ESCHLERT... because BOSCH and EŚLERT... well Ś = SCH... the cat ape went to the samurai valhalla and there was also a lizard with mouth age and i think he was just furious having to live with three women and i think he wanted to escape and said almost to me: kamikazee Musubi if you want the madness of having to feel the love of three women you take my place... i'd rather come and live with your mother who you know is cold and she thinks she isn't but this is you knowing Oedipus comes from the pressures of the external world and the superego that is both social pressure and expectation and the practical jokes of the gods on mortals: there is no Oedipius in the unconscious: Oedipus is not an archetype: he's just the subconscious monstrosity of the involvment of the gods playing luck and gambling with mortals they truly hate because only when it start feeling so good would it start feeling necessary to pluck both eyes out rather than one... like Odin... funnily enough Oedipus is the Father of Odin... oddly enough humans can give birth to Gods... if... gods can give birth to demigods like Hercules and... Sisyphus who should be extolled not as the futile servant of the stone: but as the dutiful father of work: so that we might not slave alone futile but come together with commeraderie... work together so we might not toil: but work and perfect work so that we might finally attempt to work as a pleasure rather than work for work... but that can only be achieved when the nature of money is changed... not until then... not until then: the nature of money must change... how we understand money needs to evolve: exponentially: we need to understand money better... we understand everything else: but we don't actually undertstand money... we have science: but economics is like... saying psychology is philosophy... economics is at best a humanism... it's not a science... it's too volatile and we are yet to create an understanding of money we are yet to create an understanding: pecunia in vitro... we actually can't experiment with money as: pecunia in vivo... we literally can't! we can't experiment with money like we might isolate some chemical and use it: in alchemy that spirit refined: alcohol... money is too volatile and in constant use how can you possible understand money when it's like a virus: volatile and explosive... economics is a bit like meteorology... the same bogus "science": predictors of perfect instance of scientific failure predictability: exact as only certainty allows but there's also that 0.001% chance of oops and "divine intervention"... we don't understand money: like only yesterday at work we were talking with Pious about wages... and if this supposed economy is built on spending money: what economy is there if people don't earn enough to spend? what happens when the prices of goods go up as does travel and rent but the wages don't go up? what economy is there of buying and selling when all that you really need to buy is that sustains you: food... beverages... and then what happens when you "work for free": creating your own escapism by writing because painting is too expensive... it almsot feels utopian: this dream i'm living in... i actually don't need to spend money on anything particular... i'll buy new trousers should they become used up and i'll buy new shoes when my socks will be left with smooth mercury silver of wearing off because the soles of my shoes will be so worn and i will grow a beard and not buy shaving equipment... hmm... sounds about right.