I understand now
Countless days and quiet nights
Pondering on how my course
Was altered
Chasing time that will never be
Recovered
I understand that it was never
About you and I through your eyes
It was only comfortable
Seeing how hard I wanted to love
I wanted to open, welcoming
Vulnerability in hopes of connection
My dream state kept me floating
Reaching for you as you continue
To drift
Ignoring reality in hopes of this mirage
Becoming permanent
I understand that the person I loved
Never existed
Walking away was an understatement
You ran and not once, a glimpse back
Onto the next comfortable
I won't cry, for you are simply not
Worth it
I understand now, the delusion
Shattered once you displayed
Your true self
A waste of everything I hold now in
My hands
Forced to simply move forward
Losing trust from my heart
And I can't condemn it for the
Amount of turmoil I put it through
Believing the illusion