The sky is grey
Stone cold clouds
Obscure the sun from the earth
Can't be sure what the time is
But the air is warm for what it's worth
It’s just raining, all day and a lot
Sitting in my car on my lunch break
Take a smoke and slow down
I watch the drops hit the ground
Bounce around the parking lot and disperse
Into miniscule orbs, then they skate
Over the surface of the wet asphalt
Held together by the way water molecules bend, they halt
Then their lives end, diffuse into puddles
To be walked through, driven over, wait
However long to evaporate and
Do it all over again

It’s almost beautiful, they
Reflect the grey sunlight so very briefly
Before so neatly amalgamating, indistinguishable
From the rest of itself, not unlike us
I’ve been blessed with good vision
Lately I wonder if it’s truly a boon
I’ve seen pain to soon, with much precision
Know too much of losing faith, I want to
Learn how water tessellates
Cause I also know that this skin is
The only membrane separating you from I-I-I-
I start feeling the tension, akin to the forces
Acting on the surface of water bubbles
Before they fissure and dissolve, steady

The nihilism is feeling heavy today
Stuck in one place as the hours decay
I want to learn how to live like the water
Go with the flow, let it go, let things be
Acceptance, remember that suffering
Is the fruit of attachment
But I am an ocean in human entrapment
Sometimes no amount of trying
Can decipher which of these thoughts are lying
And now I just cannot stop crying, caught up, can't control this
Crucifiction of an essence, the senescence of a soul
How to know if there even is such a thing
Bring me closer, closer, closer still
Will you stare into the abyss to find
Ain't nothing staring back at you, you are the abyss
By that I mean limitless
Like this feeling seems to be
It might take eternity, I finally
Look at the clock, this grey rock and
My break is halfway over
I have 14 minutes to get it together
And get back to work