like the first sip of a scolding hot tea you get used to it, you learn to enjoy the sting of the frosted white winter for a while, at least but soon enough, crisp turns to cold cold air, cold parks, cold house. the warmth of his heart I once knew, so well, has left to let me freeze shivering in the lack of shared body heat cold hands, cold feet, cold heart. so I bundle up in strangers arms, praying to find warmth in something else failing to find warmth in anything else