What am I doing sitting & waiting stressing & debating if my messages didn’t seem real I’m always honest faking isn’t a skill of mine thats yours can I give up or do I stay & run this course but letting you go takes pieces of my soul & shatters my heart for once in my life I’ll put me first **** the ******* it’ll only be another abandoned mission so what am I stressing over so I’ll just make a decision keep myself safe & keep away from your *******