My heart drops the world stops. Why do I feel this way? All i can say is that I've been trying to narrow down the why's my whole life. After awhile I resorted to unhealthy coping skills. Its like I'm living life running up steep hills, but yet their slippery and wet. My whole life I made a bet I wouldn't make it to 16. Now here I am going to be 17 in 4 months. The thing is I've spent the last 7 months in residential and a psych ward. I just got home and yet I feel so alone. The stonewalls still up in my mind the voice behind me consuming my head the memories of residential stain in my brain. So i just lay in bed Night and Day to keep the voices away, but hey? I wasn't suppose to be Alive this long anyway.