A year ago today
I thought I could **** myself in any way
But I took a razor to my arm
Thinking that would cause less harm
I dug the blade in so deep
for every time that I was cheap
For everything I didn't say
whether it be no or yes
the times that I was drunkenly laid
For all the people who called me quiet
or my stomach growling
you'll never go through with this diet
Just **** yourself you stupid *****
because that is all you'll ever be good for
but
I've come a long way since then
I now know I don't need to be super thin
Or do anything to please those  men
I learned to love my squinty brown eyes
And the fact that there's no gap between my thighs
I've learned that I can go and when to say no
That nothing is tying me down I no longer want to drown
In a pool of my own pity
It's weird to say and hard to do
but you can too
Dig and fight your way out of rock bottom
It'll be ***** and rough
and you'll fall back in
But dig your claws in and fight even hard
Because life is worth it
and I didn't know it then
but I'm glad I figured out
before I created my own end