i'm not ok, and it's been a long time since i was
but the breaths still come, in and out and in and out
and there are some days when i do not cry.
i can still get A's on tests and bake cookies and cheer up my friends
the rain still falls and the leaves still fall and the night still falls
but the sun rises, even if it's not up when i wake and if it hurts my eyes,
it's always there
and i'm lonely, and it's been a long time since i wasn't
but i can still see tomorrow even if i don't like it
and even when it seems like nobody would talk to me if i was the last person alive,
i remember that i'm not
that i live in a world full of people and dogs and exotic cheeses and new words,
that there are countless places to go and books to read and dollars to earn,
that in a thousand years nobody will remember the time i embarrassed myself in the hall
so i may as well say hi
and so i breath, in and out and in and out,
and some days i do not cry