I don't know how to start this
But I swear it's fucking with my mind
Cause the way you never miss
And the way it makes me cry
Why's she always first?
And the way you always seem to make it worse
Why can't I just ignore it?
For her I'd just die for it
It makes me sick
It makes me cry
It makes me wish I could denie
Denie the fact that she's important
To repair your broken comportment
I hate your jokes
I hate my life
It's tiring me
It makes me die
And yet I always seem to come back trying
Trying to keep myself from falling
Into that deep cage again
Where I never seem to be the same
And I love her
I really do
But your indecisive way of being "you"
Makes my mind go back again
To the place I've always fell
And I tired to ignore it
Annoyed I avoided
Avoided my feelings
Desperate to cover the grave
Where I hid my toxic trait.