For some inexplicable reason,
I can't seem to let go.

Let go of what?
Let go of anything.

I hold grudges that are ten years old,
Unable to budge my conscience.

I refuse to halt friendships,
That I know are venomous to my health.

I brush aside help,
From anyone, because I don't deserve it.

I reject hope,
Claiming it won't work, and will only bring pain.

I decline food, water, anything that keeps me alive,
Because I know death is sweeter than living.

I forgo my own opinions,
Deciding that really, they aren't right, and everyone knows that.

The depreciation I experience,
Is unlike any known description or overused metaphor.

I can't let go of these unwanted, malcontent feelings.
I'm useless, I barely even function.

The voices in my head can't get any louder.
**** yourself, you aren't worth anything, you're better off dead

So how do I die,
When I can't let go?