I badly want to lie about going back to him
Because I wanted it to be you
So so bad
But guess what
I went back to him
While my heart my soul are on you
I close my eyes just to spend time with you
In my dreams
I daydream everywhere i go
Thinking you’re with me in this miserable life
Im mad
A lunatic
But every once in a while
I get to remind myself
That you don’t like me
I am dead to you
I hear your voice saying those words
On repeat
You take me for granted
You treat me far worse than your forgotten clothes
Yet my heart still hopes of your return
Wake up
Stop
Pathetic little girl
I love you
In a month
I found you in the ocean of people
But it wasn’t me you want to be found with
I wonder how long would it take me
To get out of this hyperfixation
How fast could i unlove you
Next month
Will it be next year
Will it be 44 seasons from now
And i wonder
How fast did you forget me
Thinking i am still inlove with my ex
Not knowing i only wanted you

Patiently waiting
For the day when I could finally hear
My heart beating without you