You were a sunshine in the dark
When did the darkness get the best of you
When did you start feeling unworthy
Why do you always say as long as my kids have all that they need that’s all I need
I know you messed up
And you taking ownership of that
makes me proud
Because your more than your mistakes
I’m still undoing some of the things you taught me
Some of the things that I never want to pass onto my kids
His mistakes were not mine mumma I know you think I’m just like him because the way I think is like him, the way I react, laugh and style myself is just all him. I always had to remind you that I came out of your womb. I had his habits but I got stuck with your heart. Taking the weight of the world girl no him being the way he was not your fault. He could’ve given you a checklist and that still wouldn’t have been enough. I’m so sorry because of him you didn’t see yourself as someone that was deserving of love. Questioning what you could have done different. I always reminded you that you were beautiful  and he himself is broken it’s not your fault. He’s got it so wrong and one day he’ll regret what he did and when he does it’ll be to late. If he never changes it’s because his lifestyle has gotten to him and for him there was no looking back. I love you mom but god loves you more.