sometimes, the moment catches up to your emotions and everything goes haywire, that’s why staying calm matters. imagine it from the perspective of a teenager whose emotions have soared like the towering mountains on mars. anger can burn as fiercely as fire, that’s why they say, “don’t let the spark control the flame.” don’t let the moment fool you, don’t let others fool you. no one holds your emotions but you, especially anger. don’t let them get to you. if they try, find a place of quiet, somewhere where you can just be, without pressure because the more crowded it gets, the closer you are to losing control. if you can’t find a place to hide, take out a piece of paper and write down EVERYTHING you’re feeling, pour it all onto the paper, don’t leave out anything. and the key to this is to do it right after the moment, because once the moment is gone, your consciousness returns, and with it, your awareness. if you’re scared someone will find the paper, burn it; if not, keep it hidden somewhere safe.

for as long as i can remember, i’ve struggled with my anger. people around me seem to despise me for it, but they don’t know how hard i try. when i break, it’s not just one branch that snaps, it’s the whole tree that comes crashing down. they don’t know what goes on inside me, and thank god for that.

i get where they’re coming from, but that doesn’t make it easier. i do my best, but sometimes the moment still catches up with me, and afterward, i feel terrible. the cycle just repeats itself, and if i don’t get a grip on it, it’ll only spiral.