"You don't have to say it back" This phrase plagues my mind, taunts my heart and haunts my soul.
My beliefs are a window into the world I come from. Like a father's simple switch; The one shown outwardly isn't the same as the one in his house.
If everything I do, everything I don't do, makes me feel like I ****** up. How can I feel worthy of your love?
I will always love you. But there is never any pressure to say it back.
Hiding my pain. Helping others with theirs. Taking on others' burdens, hoping praying that I don't become one of them. It has always been, and will always be...
A cycle. Love has always felt like a cycle. A recognizable pattern, always noticed too late. I love you. I tolerate you. I'm tired of you.
Like a toy to a child, I will grow stale. Doomed to being left to rot once a newer, better toy arrives.
I want this feeling to end. I want to hear you say you love me, and I want to wholeheartedly believe you. But how can I When I'm not worthy of your time?
Like a child to her father, I will always love you. But like a father to his child, You don't have to say it back. ... ... ... But my heart heals when you do.