This inconsistency haunting me
Visibly losing my mind
I can’t sleep
Without worrying about a lack of attention
Like I’m giving myself permission
To live in a mental prison
Shackled by insecurity
Feeling like a charity
Asking for a crumb of recognition
As if your existence is what I’ve been missing

So why should I give my loyalty
When all I get is anxiety
Wondering, if you love me
Then when will you show me?
Where one man doesn’t, another man will
I’m finding the will to give someone else the chance
To take this dance of love
And sweep me up off of my feet
The way that you never did
Please step down, so someone else can step up
I’m not your backup for when you **** up
Everything else good in your life
Showed your true colors
Before you could discover
My love that you didn’t deserve in the first place

Thank you, universe,
Saving me from the curse
Of a love that would always have me questioning
Is this my destiny
I have a tendency
To fall in love too easily
Leaving me in pieces
To pick up alone
I’m too grown
To play these childish games
Matters of the heart are something I
Am smart about
So if you are doubting me,
Then you don’t deserve me
You’ll only hurt me
When you can’t love me back the same
I’m no stray, I don’t beg for love
And I will walk away
If I’m made to feel like a mistake, love