As I sit & stare deeply into my own thoughts,

I start to remember the untrue words that you spoken.
I start to vision the abuse you gave to me
I start to hear you call ny name.
I start to taste the ***** taste of nipped out cigarette.
I start the smell the stale alcohol.

I start to feel the suffocation of emotion,
The feeling of sadness,
The feeling of shame,
The feeling of fear,
The feeling of anxiety riddled throughout my whole body, making it impossible to move.

The suffocation of darkness, is all associated with the memory of you.