Sometimes I wish my mind could be still,
Peaceful as a sleeping Koala's will,
Social as a clownfish, happy as Quokkas.

My mind is like a boat on a disturbed sea,
Tossed by storms, side by side, forceful winds.
When I'm happy, I'm unstable.
When I'm sad, worries drive in – a roller coaster.

In every mood, my mind races like sport cars,
Unbeatable competition.
I watch my sanity turn into icebergs,
Freezing, frozen, no room for reasoning.

The more I struggle to control this restless mind,
The worse everything becomes.
How do you control something unseen?
How do you master what masters you?

A force unto itself, wild and free.
When ignored, sharp pain pierces me.
Loneliness hosts my body.
This mind of mine, a stranger to me,
Feeds on my insanity – a parasite,
Operating without consent.

This mind, a paradox of chaos and turbulent nature, stranger to my soul,
Enemy of my being.
A burden I carry alone,
A weight suppressing me every hours of the clock, tick-tock

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